This post comes from a piece of a conversation I had with Bonnie a couple of days ago. We both sort of ranted about this for a while. c:
I hate it when people label anything they own "indie", or when I look at a song's genre and see that the genre is labeled "indie". This pisses me off to no end, because I've seen some labeled that way so that they'd get more people listening to it just because they think it's cooler to listen to something "independent and hip" than something "mainstream"- which, why does it matter? Why does it matter if the music you like is mainstream or underground? Would you really say that you hated a mainstream artist you really liked just to sound cooler?
It seems like a sad situation, to have to lie about liking so-and-so because they have more than a million hits on youtube because it isn't cool to like music that everyone besides you listens to. How does that make any sense anyway?
27.6.10
25.6.10
june.
So this month has gone by really fast, and I still don't have a job. I'm hoping I can get one at the LVAC doing some desk work or something. Anyway. Yesterday we went to Tokyo Discount just to "look around" and Hunter and James both bought Gundams to build. They're both pretty awesome. James' is big enough to Hold Drossel in his arms. c:
After that we had CiCi's Pizza for the first time. It was amazing. I had nacho somethin izza and buffalo chicken pizza and refused to eat Hunter's lame macaroni pizza. When we got home CJ and Xoli popped in and we decided to make an experiment. We took an empty apple juice bottle and put in some old hot dogs and 7up, some egg we found on the concrete outside of Taco Bell and the leftovers of tacos from Taco Bell, retzels, a hot dog bun, a fig from the side of the road, milk, and piss. And now it's in the backyard becoming something we never want to open.
The month has been pretty boring except for the BBQ that everybody came over for. Hayden, Xoli, Hunter, CJ, Sherandra, and Mari all came over and we had hot dogs and burgers and played something in between apples to apples and cherades. Celtics lost the finals. :c
I've been working really hard on my Aya cosplay. I have her blouse almost finished, the fan almost finished, and the skirt on order. All I really need is a job so that I cna buy the wig and petticoat and shoes I'll need, and I can be done by the end of July. Maybe I'll post progress pictures next time. :]
21.6.10
16.6.10
geh.
if there was any one way i could choose to die, i know how i would go. i would want to die in space, without a space suit or oxygen or anything to protect me at all. since 8th grade it's always been like this. even though it would be so quick, i would die peacefully, surrounded by the stars dying and the universe expanding and the world turning around and around. that would be the only way i would be happy in death.
this was pointless. :c
4.6.10
shit.
I can't believe high school is over. I don't know if I expected it to go on forever, but somehow I got swept into this impression that EKA was going to be my home forever. It's where all of my best memories originate, where all of the funniest jokes came from, where I met everyone I call my best friends, it's just... home. I should have thought, sometime last year, that even though we experience so many things in one home, there always comes a time when we have to move out. We have to find a new home and make new friends. I guess I never thought this because, no matter how many houses we moved into our out of, because of foreclosure or divorces or money issues, EK was always there. I never left that home. Even on the days we were moving, I went to school.
It's just hitting me now that I won't get to go to another block D or B in my life. There's going to be no more surgery, no more Pokemon class, no more after-lunch riots, no more "let's go outside" and no more "snack shack doesn't have shit today". I'm never going to have to wake up at 6:20 and straighten my hair to put my ribbons in. I won't be taking pictures of barbecues and dances, I won't be struggling with my math grade or scholarships, I won't have to sneak kisses with James when the teachers aren't looking. There won't be guitar at lunch, playing Audiosurf during project time, and smashing food in the keyboards. No experiments, no Ubuntu, no credits to get, no projects to do at the last second. No projects at all.
I'm going to miss middle and high school more than I've ever missed anything. I remember being so happy and upbeat on the very day the school opened, my first day of 6th grade. I was wearing a blue and white striped shirt. Mr. Gakuru's class was unruly from the start, but I found a friend in this girl Alexis Todd, who had a fleck of brown in her otherwise blue eyes. We became inseperable best friends for that year. We shared our desk and went on Horseland with a blonde girl named Nicole, Indra still went to the school and we hung out sometimes, but she left. After winter break we had a big conference table and rolly chairs for everyone. Seirra Pagrovsky and I talked about animals and drew stuff during math class, and Mr. Gakuru's wife had a baby. I got him a gift for the baby, a blue jumper thing with a giraffe on it. Kaela and Lindsey became our friends, and they came over after school so we could walk to the park and play Horseland. At the end of year, I printed all of my pictures out, put them in my rolling pink backpack, and walked cheerfully to my mom's car. We drove our two blacks back home to the Westbury house.
In second year, seventh grade, the boys and girls were separated by gender. The building's elementary and middle/high school switches sides, and the girls all ended up in the garage. I didn't really have any close friends. I took horseback riding lessons, get intrested in photography, and did no projects because Mrs. Erickson didn't show up on most days of school. Kaela left the school to go to Green Valley, so I just hung by myself on my desk. I was very stuck up at the time. I sometimes went to visit Kellie and Jen in the corner with Corinne, and we all ate lunch with Tyler and Nate. We went with Mr. Gakuru to Paradise Park for soccer class and dicked around. Sometimes I brought Dracula along. We had Boxermath and Ms. Mattson for the first time. I had lots of notebooks and read / wrote fanfics. We went over to Dad's golf course house for the weekend and watched Killing Spree and FMA. At the end of that year I picked up all of my notebooks and stole two crates from the school so I could take them all home, back to the new Ridgewater house.
Third year, eigth grade, was awesome. I was in Yetter's class and mom babysat for Michael a lot. He was super into garbage trucks and we left the school for about a month. When we went back, my sister and I were best friends and working on You Die, and I became close with Riley and Cassandra. We climbed up the mountain and did BRS stuff and rode the roller coasters and chilled at Harley and the Rec Center. We talked about Naruto and only Naruto, Cassandra spent a few nights over every week, we drew and sang and stayed up until the sun rose. We hung out at the smoke shop and caught little fishies and I was intrested in MPD and hte Donner Party. I became friends with Cera and we shared a desk and chocolate covered cheese bunnies. At the end of that year, we moved into the building we're in now. I think my mom was dating Ken by then.
Fourth year, ninth grade, was weird, because we were in a different side of the building. Me, Kelllie, and Emily sat in the far corner of the classroom and improved our artwork. This was the year that mom got married to Ken, and halfway through the year we moved to the Calvino house. My sister and I were still BFFs, and we played Rule of Rose and Okami every single day. We were all over Gaia and spent money on it. I drew on a tablet for the first time that year, becuase it was my birthday gift. When we left the Ridewater house, I had Muffin with me, and Dracula was not to be allowed upstairs. I dyed my hair red and I started wearing colorful stuff and I met Bonnie and Sadey in the new neighborhood. I found all of the music I'm into today in that year. It was a musical breakthrough for me. Brina was in Webster's class and I visited her sometimes. We had math with Mr. Price (and we never did make him that PEMDAS bracelet) and it was my first year being in Quinn's class. I remember one of the first things he and I did was preform surgery on a broken football. It was also my first Anime Vegas.
Fifth year, tenth grade, was hilarious. This was the year I really got to know the people I hang out with today, Jake and Guam and others. Quinn's class moved to where Price's had been the year prior, Mrs. Davis came in with her crazy Beowolf and Tempest/Hamlet, and it would be Mr. Gakuru's last year. We sat around the big table in the morning and had circle, I drew Rule of Rose fanart, played on my laptop, and Jake played guitar every lunchtime. I worked on my Naruto charcter and super shipped SasuIta. I discovered the power to download music and used it. We walked with Quinn to the library and all yelled at him about locking our mothers in the basement in front of a cop at Ethel M, after he almost got us run over by a pink car. We had Grandpa and RJ and Christa and Kyle in the class, and the classroom itself was filthy all the time. Sometime that year we moved into the Stephanie condo. It was a loud year full of Guitars and rave music and mathbook fights and yo-yos. We played Guilty Gear a lot.
Sixth year- last year, eleventh grade, was the night class. The greatest. School started at 10:30 and ended at 5:00 or something. We sometimes got out in the pitch black of night. Rocky and Jake played instruments in the classrooms that empties when normal classes ended, I worked relentlessly at stories and drawings and Orrery. Chalkie and I became incredibly close when I got MSN on my laptop, and we talked every single day about weird dreams we had and our little sisters and pets and animus that we had watched. We shared music and loli pictures and smiles and laughs even though we were thousands of miles away from one-another. We were best friends. I studied airplaines and astronomy and World War II, I played Guilty Gear and Transformers game at night and I played Audiosurf for the first time. It blew my mind. We had Geometry with Ms. Kino and I had english with Collier, we skimmed over Macbeth and I adored Fahrenheit 451, we wrote a puppet show, I did stuff on Swine Flu and Catherine of Aragon. I did a big project on Jonestown and never wrote the paper.
And then there was this year. 12th grade, seventh year, senior class 2010. This year was a year of experiments and riots and Pokemon and pictures and Shakespeared done right. It's been the year of Transformers and hats and Mr. Ruhele's long algebra 2 class. We had Henderson doing our whimsical little science class that no-one ever did anything in and Quinn lecturing us on government stuff. We've had elections and fritos and chili and ipod on the way to school. We moved into the Overture house on the first few days of school. We had a senior trip of loud dinner tables nad Dig Dug and Blue Man Group toilet paper. We had senior meetings that were loud and lame and amazing. We had 711 and mall day and dances and government. We had drama and SimCity and rollerskates and bathroom pee. There was out ball and scholarships and Minecraft and Beat Hazard. Best of all was that I had James with me through all of it, offering me an opinion I never would have thought of and a challenge for my head and a shoulder to rest my head on. This year was the best, or one of the best along with last year and third year.
Today the bunch of us just kind of gathered in the church where we hold big school events, got ready with all of our gowns and stuff, and kind of high-fivewd eachother. Everyone was there and I think the ceremony went pretty well. Mr. Z told us to give literature a chance, he forget where everyone was, and the head of the board of directors like cried for himself for some reason. Collier cried and I think Jessica cried, but Xoli and I cried the most for some reason. Xoli made people he didn't even know cry with his speech. Afterward we all went to Macaroni Grill- Me, my mom, James, Hunter and his family, Lexi, Mike, Megan, Mari, Xoli, Hayden, David, everyone pretty much. Quinn showed up late and surprised Hunter and I with "graduation gifts" he must have spent a fortune on- an iPod for Hunter because his Zune was stolen, and a DS lite for me because he knew I ws using Bri's. My mom bought me my CMYK Diana and a graduation gift also, but the best parts weren't the gifts. It was just like. Chilling and talking with everyone after dinner and after the ceremonies. We're like a big family. I'll never forget all of the memories I have from EKA, but that's a given. The one thing I refuse to give up is that sense of familial affection we have for one-another, the "you got this" attitude. I freaking loved high school. And middle school too.
Fuck yeah Explore Knowledge Academy.
It's just hitting me now that I won't get to go to another block D or B in my life. There's going to be no more surgery, no more Pokemon class, no more after-lunch riots, no more "let's go outside" and no more "snack shack doesn't have shit today". I'm never going to have to wake up at 6:20 and straighten my hair to put my ribbons in. I won't be taking pictures of barbecues and dances, I won't be struggling with my math grade or scholarships, I won't have to sneak kisses with James when the teachers aren't looking. There won't be guitar at lunch, playing Audiosurf during project time, and smashing food in the keyboards. No experiments, no Ubuntu, no credits to get, no projects to do at the last second. No projects at all.
I'm going to miss middle and high school more than I've ever missed anything. I remember being so happy and upbeat on the very day the school opened, my first day of 6th grade. I was wearing a blue and white striped shirt. Mr. Gakuru's class was unruly from the start, but I found a friend in this girl Alexis Todd, who had a fleck of brown in her otherwise blue eyes. We became inseperable best friends for that year. We shared our desk and went on Horseland with a blonde girl named Nicole, Indra still went to the school and we hung out sometimes, but she left. After winter break we had a big conference table and rolly chairs for everyone. Seirra Pagrovsky and I talked about animals and drew stuff during math class, and Mr. Gakuru's wife had a baby. I got him a gift for the baby, a blue jumper thing with a giraffe on it. Kaela and Lindsey became our friends, and they came over after school so we could walk to the park and play Horseland. At the end of year, I printed all of my pictures out, put them in my rolling pink backpack, and walked cheerfully to my mom's car. We drove our two blacks back home to the Westbury house.
In second year, seventh grade, the boys and girls were separated by gender. The building's elementary and middle/high school switches sides, and the girls all ended up in the garage. I didn't really have any close friends. I took horseback riding lessons, get intrested in photography, and did no projects because Mrs. Erickson didn't show up on most days of school. Kaela left the school to go to Green Valley, so I just hung by myself on my desk. I was very stuck up at the time. I sometimes went to visit Kellie and Jen in the corner with Corinne, and we all ate lunch with Tyler and Nate. We went with Mr. Gakuru to Paradise Park for soccer class and dicked around. Sometimes I brought Dracula along. We had Boxermath and Ms. Mattson for the first time. I had lots of notebooks and read / wrote fanfics. We went over to Dad's golf course house for the weekend and watched Killing Spree and FMA. At the end of that year I picked up all of my notebooks and stole two crates from the school so I could take them all home, back to the new Ridgewater house.
Third year, eigth grade, was awesome. I was in Yetter's class and mom babysat for Michael a lot. He was super into garbage trucks and we left the school for about a month. When we went back, my sister and I were best friends and working on You Die, and I became close with Riley and Cassandra. We climbed up the mountain and did BRS stuff and rode the roller coasters and chilled at Harley and the Rec Center. We talked about Naruto and only Naruto, Cassandra spent a few nights over every week, we drew and sang and stayed up until the sun rose. We hung out at the smoke shop and caught little fishies and I was intrested in MPD and hte Donner Party. I became friends with Cera and we shared a desk and chocolate covered cheese bunnies. At the end of that year, we moved into the building we're in now. I think my mom was dating Ken by then.
Fourth year, ninth grade, was weird, because we were in a different side of the building. Me, Kelllie, and Emily sat in the far corner of the classroom and improved our artwork. This was the year that mom got married to Ken, and halfway through the year we moved to the Calvino house. My sister and I were still BFFs, and we played Rule of Rose and Okami every single day. We were all over Gaia and spent money on it. I drew on a tablet for the first time that year, becuase it was my birthday gift. When we left the Ridewater house, I had Muffin with me, and Dracula was not to be allowed upstairs. I dyed my hair red and I started wearing colorful stuff and I met Bonnie and Sadey in the new neighborhood. I found all of the music I'm into today in that year. It was a musical breakthrough for me. Brina was in Webster's class and I visited her sometimes. We had math with Mr. Price (and we never did make him that PEMDAS bracelet) and it was my first year being in Quinn's class. I remember one of the first things he and I did was preform surgery on a broken football. It was also my first Anime Vegas.
Fifth year, tenth grade, was hilarious. This was the year I really got to know the people I hang out with today, Jake and Guam and others. Quinn's class moved to where Price's had been the year prior, Mrs. Davis came in with her crazy Beowolf and Tempest/Hamlet, and it would be Mr. Gakuru's last year. We sat around the big table in the morning and had circle, I drew Rule of Rose fanart, played on my laptop, and Jake played guitar every lunchtime. I worked on my Naruto charcter and super shipped SasuIta. I discovered the power to download music and used it. We walked with Quinn to the library and all yelled at him about locking our mothers in the basement in front of a cop at Ethel M, after he almost got us run over by a pink car. We had Grandpa and RJ and Christa and Kyle in the class, and the classroom itself was filthy all the time. Sometime that year we moved into the Stephanie condo. It was a loud year full of Guitars and rave music and mathbook fights and yo-yos. We played Guilty Gear a lot.
Sixth year- last year, eleventh grade, was the night class. The greatest. School started at 10:30 and ended at 5:00 or something. We sometimes got out in the pitch black of night. Rocky and Jake played instruments in the classrooms that empties when normal classes ended, I worked relentlessly at stories and drawings and Orrery. Chalkie and I became incredibly close when I got MSN on my laptop, and we talked every single day about weird dreams we had and our little sisters and pets and animus that we had watched. We shared music and loli pictures and smiles and laughs even though we were thousands of miles away from one-another. We were best friends. I studied airplaines and astronomy and World War II, I played Guilty Gear and Transformers game at night and I played Audiosurf for the first time. It blew my mind. We had Geometry with Ms. Kino and I had english with Collier, we skimmed over Macbeth and I adored Fahrenheit 451, we wrote a puppet show, I did stuff on Swine Flu and Catherine of Aragon. I did a big project on Jonestown and never wrote the paper.
And then there was this year. 12th grade, seventh year, senior class 2010. This year was a year of experiments and riots and Pokemon and pictures and Shakespeared done right. It's been the year of Transformers and hats and Mr. Ruhele's long algebra 2 class. We had Henderson doing our whimsical little science class that no-one ever did anything in and Quinn lecturing us on government stuff. We've had elections and fritos and chili and ipod on the way to school. We moved into the Overture house on the first few days of school. We had a senior trip of loud dinner tables nad Dig Dug and Blue Man Group toilet paper. We had senior meetings that were loud and lame and amazing. We had 711 and mall day and dances and government. We had drama and SimCity and rollerskates and bathroom pee. There was out ball and scholarships and Minecraft and Beat Hazard. Best of all was that I had James with me through all of it, offering me an opinion I never would have thought of and a challenge for my head and a shoulder to rest my head on. This year was the best, or one of the best along with last year and third year.
Today the bunch of us just kind of gathered in the church where we hold big school events, got ready with all of our gowns and stuff, and kind of high-fivewd eachother. Everyone was there and I think the ceremony went pretty well. Mr. Z told us to give literature a chance, he forget where everyone was, and the head of the board of directors like cried for himself for some reason. Collier cried and I think Jessica cried, but Xoli and I cried the most for some reason. Xoli made people he didn't even know cry with his speech. Afterward we all went to Macaroni Grill- Me, my mom, James, Hunter and his family, Lexi, Mike, Megan, Mari, Xoli, Hayden, David, everyone pretty much. Quinn showed up late and surprised Hunter and I with "graduation gifts" he must have spent a fortune on- an iPod for Hunter because his Zune was stolen, and a DS lite for me because he knew I ws using Bri's. My mom bought me my CMYK Diana and a graduation gift also, but the best parts weren't the gifts. It was just like. Chilling and talking with everyone after dinner and after the ceremonies. We're like a big family. I'll never forget all of the memories I have from EKA, but that's a given. The one thing I refuse to give up is that sense of familial affection we have for one-another, the "you got this" attitude. I freaking loved high school. And middle school too.
Fuck yeah Explore Knowledge Academy.
2.6.10
derpaderpadesk.
So I figure it's time for one of those BATTLESTATION GO posts. The last one I did was when I first made this blog and my desk was pretty lame. I couldn't contain everything to -just- the desk, so I decided to do my half of the room. I just started making my own collage wall that will hopefully connect to the one above our 360 / TV area. I just wish Blogger didn't slaughter the quality of the already not-so-great pictures. :c
Laptop front thing/ You have no idea how long it took to do those sitckers. ALSO FUCKING CD ART DISPLAY SHOWING THE EKA LOGO THAT'S IN MY DOWNLOADS INSTEAD OF THE ALBUM COVER FUUUUUCK.
So like. This is a peice of the wall that i'm trying to fill with notes from people. I have a note from a long-lost internet friend, Bonnie's beluaga baby, and the note that James gave me on my whristmas gift box. Also a page from the Transformers comic I got when I bought Henkei Sunstreaker where Starscream retreats because he gets drawn on. It's one of the best pages of anything ever.
Then there are movie tickets. The one from James' cousins' house, the one from the Avatar showing on my birthday, the Tyler Perry tickets James and I had to buy to sneak into Hot Tub Time Machine with Hunter and Lexi, and others. Most of the important ones, like Kick-Ass and How to Train Your Dragon, are Fandango and can't go up there. :[
Not a bra Russia, the "we all scream for Starscream" comic I drew with Bri, Bonnie, and Myself in it, a peice of tape from Anime LA and a peice of toilet paper from Blue Man Group, an old store list with Soundwave on it, and a flower James crocheted for me. c:
A biiig picture I drew of James and I skipping. The outside wrapper to Revoltech Megatron or Scarscream, and in the upper right, the first picture I ever took on film- on this old My Little Pony camera that I shot one 35 mm roll on and then lost after development.
The main part of my desk is taken up by paintbrushes, Shakespeare books, Megs, Screamer, and Drossel playing jumprope with a peice of baby year, my badass lone star Clone Trooper eating chocolate cake, andnasty cups full of nasty paint water. Also the huge puffy white tutu that Blurr wore for like a month.
And then the other half is a clusterfuck of Sideswipe and Soundwave without a memory card and god knows what else. Majesty is there and so is my Russian dictionary and all of the passes from previous anime conventions. There are old polariods and some other shit that shouldn't be there.
This is the last picture I took because it came out really out of focus. This was back in the day when I was about 12 / 13 and had a whole closet to display my My Little Pony collection. It was every G3 to date, every American sold G2, and a bunch of G1s I had as a kid. It was about 450 poines not counting all the playsets and acessories and houseware I had. KAY I'M DONE.
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